So my cell phone rings, im watching f1, im like wtf leave me alone, its a girl i knew from sophomore year, so i answerer.
Hello?
Heeeyyyy, its Ashley.
Oh hey! how are you?
Thats what we need to talk about, can you come outside?
Outside my house?
Yes..
Okay, ill be out in a bit.
I hang up and put my shoes on, I got outside and shes standing there next to her car smoking a cigarette, the smell is strong but not revolting. It reminded me of her, it brought back many memories i had forgotten about. Shes cute, sexy, she was someone i always wanted. I made out with her once, but never really went anywhere with her, she had problems with getting into relationships, and i had problems with having sex with people that didn't want a relationship.
Anyways, she gives me a hug and i hug her back. Before i know it, the hug turns into a hold. She tells me she misses me and that she always loved me, she never knew why she let me get so distant from her, she told me she wished she held me closer. I ask whats wrong because her voice was unsteady and her hands where quite cold. She lets go and steps back she tells me her grandfather has died. To anyone, loosing a grandfather is sad but something we soon get over. But for her its different. Both her parents are dead, Her mother died from cancer and her father died in a car accident. She was raised by her grandparents so essentially her grandfather was her dad. I immediately felt terrible. I pulled her back into my arms and held on to her for a few minutes longer she started to cry and i decided to say a few kind words, she was standing, and slightly stumbled. Thats when i realized she was swaying quite a bit. I ask her if she had been drinking, she looked at the ground and said yes. At this point, i gave her one last hug and turned around, she ask me, "were are you going?" I told her, "back inside." She was quiet for a bit and then told me, "no.. please dont" I turned around and walked towards her, looking her in the eyes i said, "You NEED to be more careful, you deserve better care for yourself, you are better than this. You wouldn't play Russian roulette would you?" She looked at me and in a steady voice she projected "no" strait to me. I replied, "then why are you doing this?" I cant describe how disappointed i was in her. Shes better than this. I wanted to be mad at her, but i couldn't. Not with the recent death. So i gave her a hug, and i told her to sit down i ask her how much she had drank. she told me she had about 6 beers around an hour ago. I told her i didn't want her to drive home, she told me she wasn't going home and that the house she was headed too was in my neighbor hood. A friends house who is letting her stay with her. I smiled and said, "Oh." I ask, "is that where you came from?" she said, "yes" i began to feel slightly stupid as i realized she wasn't driving as far i had pictured, i told her i would drive her back to the house and walk home and she agreed.
So i drove her back to the house and we got out, she told me thanks, and that she loved me, i told her shes welcome and that i loved her too. It was adorable :) i walked home shivering the entire way and hopped on pbn to tell my not so friendly friends.
I missed a bunch of the f1 practice!
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